Lately I've been slacking a bit on learning.
I know the reason. I'm spending my time on music production.
My interest has completely been taken over by it.
“I'll just tweak the song a little.” “I'll just check this melody.” “Ten minutes should be fine.”
That's how I start. And then I notice. It's not ten minutes at all.
I vaguely know. This isn't a break. It's plain escaping. lol
Next to my desk, the study I was supposed to do is properly sitting there. I can see it. I can see it perfectly well, but I pretend I can't and make music. That's KAZUKIN lately.
But the time I spend making music is something I like a lot
Even so, when I'm making music I'm genuinely focused. Thinking up a melody, revising lyrics, trying it on guitar, tossing it to an AI and thinking “something's off” and redoing it.
Before I know it, I've been at it forever. I even check the clock less. I also think that time when you can be completely absorbed in something is actually quite precious.
As an adult, work and schedules and “I have to do this, I have to do that” keep growing. In the middle of all that, having something you can get so absorbed in that you forget the time is not a bad thing. ...It's not bad, but.
学びそっちのけでメロディ作ってたらこんな時間だね・・・
I forget the time too much
I started thinking “just a little today,” and then I fix the song, listen to another, look at the cover art, change the lyrics again, “this one's better, right?”... and suddenly I look at the clock. Midnight.
...Huh? What about studying? What I planned to do today?
Only then do I remember. Ah, I was escaping again. All I can do is laugh.
Well, I'm not not progressing
Music production is also one of KAZUKINLAB's ways of learning. Thought of that way, I'm not doing absolutely nothing. Trying new things, looking up what I don't understand, failing, and remaking. That's certainly study too.
...But if I start using this logic, there's a risk I'll never study for the qualifications at all, which is dangerous. I should keep the two separate. lol
Music is fun. Learning matters. I know. I know, but right now music is a bit stronger.
Probably today again, I'll say “I'll take a short break” and open music. And a few hours later, ah, I was escaping again.
Summary
Learn a little, play a little, and mostly be lost.
KAZUKIN Rating
- 🎵 Reliability of “just ten minutes” — ★☆☆☆☆ (never once kept)
- 🎧 Absorption in music production — ★★★★★
- 📚 Progress on studying for qualifications — ★☆☆☆☆
- 😅 Persuasiveness of the “this is learning too” theory — ★★☆☆☆ (works only on myself)
- 🌙 Rate of realizing it's already midnight — ★★★★☆